WELCOME TO MY LIFE

2010-05-21T00:34:00.004+08:00

Finally i graduated from TP...
HAH!
after 3 freakin dreaadful years..im out of that place..

okay i think im being a little pessimistic here.
Guess it wasnt so bad.. poly life wasnt that great, but wasnt that bad either..
I kinda miss it somehow..
Now that im out, seriously ive no sense of where im going to do...lol
applied for NIE/NTU BA/BSc but got rejected aft interview.. seriously??!!
I got the most uptight and fierce looking interviewers.
NO WONDER.. what luck..=X

its kinda depressing actually.
I seriously feel like REJECT.
But nah, i'll try again next yr Feb.. dont care how long it takes, bottomline is im gg to be a teacher.
Much better than working in a lab.. i just cant breathe in there! lol

And oh, not forgetting the tons of weddings i have to attend to next 2 wks!
Time seems to fly past so fast.. seems like all my close cousins r getting married.
If my 'calculations' r correct i'll be the only 'young adult' kinda person left single by next yr..
thats a freakin downer..
Im not even attached.. its gonna be along road before i get to be in their position!
haixx...It must be so sweeeet.. *.*

lol

Alritey enough of day dreaming and wishful thinking.
I think i'll last the whole night thinking abt it..HAHA

Bye Bye peeeps..
Take care <3

2009-12-30T20:54:00.009+08:00

Sometimes i just dont understand myself..
Recently ive been feeling and acting really wierd..
Ive no idea why im like this.. =(
Nope, not PMS..
Never had PMS all my life..

Well actually i do know what it is,
BUT there's no way im revealing it publicly...

But then again, i dont know why because of this problem,
i begin to act all REALLY strange n stuff..
Anyway i dont want to bother about that anymore...
Time will heal everything..

So anyway, i just watched Avatar in 3D last week..
and oh my god it was AWESOME!!
The 3D effect made it ten- if not hundred - times better..
This is THE movie to watch if u really want a good 3D experience..

Watching 'The Fourth Kind' soon...
not really sure abt the movie though.
Something about Supernatural /ET / UFOs..
i doubt it would be scary, though many people say it was..

Just like Paranormal Activity,
which almost everybody said was the most scariest movie of all time..

So i went to experience it myself... and hell yeah it was a record breaker..
Its like - The most boring movie of all time !!!

Seriously, the movie is VERY boring..VERY VERY draggy and slow..

its just the night scenes that had alot of suspense..
but then nothing great really happens after that..
Just knocking sounds, moving doors and thats it..

I guess this movie, likewise the very similar Blair Witch Project,
dont give the type of scares that really freak me out..
Some other movies do though - like Shutter (veeeerrry scary)..

Despite all that i guess watching The Fourth Kind will be nice..
since ive always loved UFO and ET kinda stuff..haha

Oh wait now, i just remembered...
i have alot of things to do this weekend.
OMG seriously alot!!

And none of it is fun....
They're all projects and reports and tests to study for!
Uh-oh..
There goes my weekend....
Aaargh...im doomed..

One more thing i just remembered,
i volunteered to participate in TP Open house next week...didnt I?
How could ive forgotten!!

NOW im officially doomed.
I TOTALLY have no time to study for tests next week.
I feel like dropping dead right now..=X

Wait, no i cant do that..

Urrgh...i guess ive to go and meditate
and clear my mind from all these pessimistic thoughts..=(
Think positive, think positive!

Alright now, i know what to do..
i guess i know how to clear my mind and think positive.

My guilty pleasure - Spongebob Squarepants..!! coming up in 15 minutes time..!!!
Now THAT never fail me..
ALWAYS make me cheer up and 'THINK HAPPY'! hehehe..

Guess im done for now...
haha..

Nitey nite..

! ;D

2009-12-04T23:14:00.019+08:00

Okay Okay, emo aside...
haha

Anyway, feeling a little better today..
Went sch at 5pm (pathetic rite?) to hand in some work and met up with someone to have dinner!
Actually i got some other plans but nah, i'll make time for it later.

For the past 1 week ive been sooo sick..
even my mom and brother were sick..sob2

BUT you know whats the good thing?
I took 2 days mc on Mon and Tue,
then on Tue night i asked around what time do i have to report to sch on Wed.

And whoaaaaa i was shocked at the replies..
''Huh??No school from Wed to Fri lah...''
Really??!!
So that means im not going school for 1 whole week?
Best nyyyeeeeer!!!
Hahahah =D

BUT tooo much of a good thing is in fact not at all good...
Coz now im like a bored to death person at home with nothing to do..
Glad i have to go sch today to hand in stuff - at least i could get out of my house..

Anyways i got a youtube crush now..haha!!
Well its not something new though, its been pretty long since i watched his videos..
Yeah i know some ppl say he's not that gd- looking and stuff like that..
But to me he's just freaking awesome!

To me He's soo handsome (emphasize on ''TO ME'') ,
and he's so consistent in doing his project365 -

he's making 1 video every single day for a year..

and he's reaching the end very soon..

He's on day 337 now..
a few more days to go!! Keep it up!!
I sooo admire his perseverance..if thats what u call it..haha

Seriously who would have the time to make videos every day?!
Plus he's got a job and a life..
its not like he's a stay-at-home nerd or something..

And not to mention his videos are not boring..
he always have ideas of what to do..
Yeah the videos are short..but come on, 1 video every day??
That's good enough you know..

Haha anyway here's a link to his day 337 video..
i dnw its abt sign language..
they're just random videos - sometimes lame sometimes funny.. and check out his channel too..

CLICK!!! =
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yNwnO3GXFP8&feature=sub

His name's Alex Mercado by the way..haha..
okay i know you wont really care
but well im just showing you a guy who's REALLLLLY REALLLLY my type..haha..

I can simply imagine the Malay version of him..oh god how i wish..lol
It might be someone of a mixed race (like Indian/Malay/Arab) or something like that...
His face and features fits into that category...

Wonder if i can find someone who looks exactly/ similar to him here...
haixx.. wishful thinking..

Hahaha..alright now.. gotta go sleep!!
Dont know why i feel so sleepy when its still early..

See ya..takecare =D

2009-12-02T17:28:00.015+08:00

Some things that happen in life are so difficult to comprehend..
At times i just dont understand the turn of events that occur..
But i know 1 thing, they always make me feel worser than i already am..

Im speaking general now,
coz if i were to elaborate on the details, nobody would understand..

I dont know what is wrong with me...
probably just having some kind of mental breakdown..

Not trying to be emo, but heck, sometimes one will tend to feel
like the whole world is crashing upon him/her - at least once in their whole lifetime.

That's what im feeling right now.

Well i know though, i cant just let this take control over me..
I must do things to divert my focus and attention to other stuffs..
Ive always been trying to do just that, but sometimes
i cant help but to contemplate and think about these problems over and over again...

Haiixxx.. i just hope time will heal everything..

Coz as much as i want to, i really cant do anything
abt it but only hope for good things to come by..

One thing for sure, i must always have faith in God and believe in myself..
And at least i know i have the few who'll always
be by my side- though i know they will never fully understand..

Guess im done rambling abt my current feelings
and situation - well not really 'current', its more like a build-up of feelings
and thoughts throughout the years of me living in this world

- wierd, cold, complicated world -

yeah negative thinking, i know...but whatever...

Dont mind me..

Thanks for listening =)

2009-11-30T14:38:00.008+08:00

hEYY..
today was not really bad at all..
I know yesterday was utterly terrible.
but heck im not going to freakin care..

Aniwaezz..
went out with my two cousins, Syafiq and Syafiqah..
wah, just looking at the names looks likes there's chemistry already huh..
nah what am i talking abt..
haha just kidding ;P

Though it wasnt bad, it wasnt really good either.
U know why?
Coz i feel like a spoiler ..haha
I was so half-deadly sick and i was trying
my really best to NOT have an asthma attack.
I hate it when i have to breathe like im already 80 years old..

Lack of air and oxygen to my brain and circulatory system..so i cant really focus..
i guess i missed out on some of the interesting
things both of them were talking abt.
However around 6pm onwards i started to feel a lil better,
probably coz i wasnt walking around much.
That time we were eating and talking about, well, stuff......

But before that we went to museums and some nice picturesque places - though we didnt really take much photos.. haha

Apart from my sickness, It was indeed quite fun..
im really looking forward to going out again with those two cute cousins of mine next time!
Next - the reservoir!
Where we would sing and play guitar all day long,
without having to look back and check if anyone's observing..haha..

Overall, well a pretty much satisfying day....
at least it kept my mind off some stupid stuffs.
However im still a little concerned abt some things..

to the person whom this is concerned, i hope u dont take things too seriously and deeply k...
for now just live life like it is..dont stress urself out..

Oh, btw it's got nothing to do with me and my stupid problem..its abt someone else.

Alrightey then, gotta catch up on some 'ManVS Wild' on Discovery...
i LOVE LOVE LOVE Bear Grylls!! He's freakin AWESOME. I have a MAJOR crush on him!
Coz he's just so brave and adventurous...

There's nobody quite like him, trust me..haha

Okay then dudes and dudettes..See ya! ;D

2009-11-30T13:55:00.006+08:00

Well im back to school once again..
projects and more projects. when will all these ever end!!!??

You know, its really NOT easy to be
given high expectations by others..
People keep saying that im able to set the standard
and become a role model ,etc.
But they never really understand how difficult it is to make that climb.

Well yeah i kn0w people will say ''of course its hard but u can surely make it''...bla bla bla
BUT the struggle to keep up with
their expectation is too much for me to handle.
Seriously people have to stop asking me qns and telling me what to do..
Coz im not as lucky as some people.
Im NOT born smart. And i know myself more than anyone else does..
so stop telling me im born smart damn it!!!
All these while I had to struggle and work harder to keep up with the others.

So anytime,ANYTIME i can fall.
and I dont want to be a failure.
I just want to be happy with what i achieve and
not having people telling me what to do or what to become.
I never wanted to be an over achiever.
i still want to have a friggin LIFE.

Okay that enough for now. It just that ALOT of people keep buggin me with incessant qns that makes me STRESSED OUT!! Alright i HAD IT..

Well apparently today's just a bad bad day..

2009-10-07T22:51:00.003+08:00

Im back!!!

Whoaa...
i think i just broke the record..
Its officially the longest time since i wrote a post.

Bleahxxx
So now..
Having my internship..at Raffles Hospital..
Seriously i feel like im working already and at times i forgot that im still schooling..

Truth is, i kinda likw working there..
Got some nice people..and all r around 20s - 30s..

Cool..

Btw, ive been really busy..
Leave house at 8am, reach house at 8pm..
Wow...how fun..
=X

Thats the reason why ive no time for anything..
need to keep up with SIP relflections and workbook and report...

Aaargh!!
Im running out of time!

Ive to do it now..at least finish up the Literature review..

Gotta go now =D

byE!!

2009-06-06T13:11:00.006+08:00

Exams OVER!!
but i dont feel good abt it...
coz i think i screwed 3 out of the 5 papers for this term test..
Medical Microbiology is open book but its REALLY a pain in the a**
Clinical Chemistry officially is the WORST paper..
Blood Banking is average but im still not confident abt it...

So there u go...My A's have flown away...
And i dont care..
im sick n tired of studying already...like seriously im sick of it..
But then for the sake of my future.....sigh =X

Anyway,
since exams are gone for good,except for some group projects yet to be done,
I can finally BREATHE~~!!!

2 weeks holiday, then it'll be my internship!!
My placement have been confirmed..
Im posted to Raffles Hospital..
Not really sure how i feel abt that..

Happy coz theres allowance..
Not happy coz theres only 4-5 ppl posted there..
It'll be more fun in SGH coz around 20++ people are going there..

Haix..
for 5 gruelling months, I'm going to miss everybody..

I dont know why but i easily miss
people or things regardless of whether
they're close to me or not...

I guess i just dont like change..
It'll take me sometime to adapt to the new situation..
Im going to miss school so much now..
which i never thought i would..
LoL

But since im posted to Raffles Hospital,at least i got
an allowance to compensate for my 'feeling of missing someone'
(actually is there a noun for that? it'll be easier if there is..haha)

Yeah so i guess its not that bad...
anyway most people will be separated into different departments...
every one will feel lonely at times...
me particularly...sigh

2009-05-20T19:47:00.013+08:00

GOD Im sooo tired!!
Ive been feeling so sleepy today..
even i school..
My brain tells me to drink coffee but my heart says NO!!
(or the other way round??)
Coz Coffee stains teeth!!!
LoL

Anyway..
Today,nothing much..

Rushed to BBANK lab and ive no idea why the venue changed..
Timetable reads it7-5-4 but venue is at level 6 instead..
But i was told we've been having lab at level 6 for the past weeks...
So im the one who's slow...

But oh god when i was walking to school
i saw a guy who's soooo freakin handsome/gorgeous/cute...
(wtv i dont know the most appropriate adjectives ppl use today...lol)

He's the one that made me speechless last time...
VERRRRY rarely do i get to see him...
but i know for sure he's from IT school...

Ugghh..why cant i see him more often??
He is god damn 110% MY type...
and its verrrry rarely that i get to see someone who's my type...

Hmmm....too bad then..
Chances of me meeting him and getting
to talk to him or anything like that is almost zero..

So, i guess i can just wish...
But now how i wish he'll get out of my head coz i need to focus on CCHEM!!

Anyways,
oh the msn messenger thing, Its Killing me!!
I received tons of links every single time
i sign in and the messages are getting dirtier and filthier..
its disgusting...

I better download some msn virus cleaner or something like that--if there is one..

And if im one of those contacts
who's being used to send these disgusting things, Sorry!!
Haha...
I didnt mean to..its out of my control...LoL

Alrite then, gotta catch up on CCHEM!!
Im still trying to finish topic 2...

2009-05-16T23:22:00.007+08:00

Im feeling pretty much okay compared to few days back...
haha
All better now!!

Anyways,
things have been a little complicated lately
I dont know, but some things just dont fall into place...

Things dont happen the way i hoped it would be..
And some other things just boggles my mind!!

Yeah yeah i know, its parts n parcels of life...
Somehow I just have to handle it by myself...

So actually those r some of the reasons why i was
feeling pretty down a few days back..
But now Im fine...sort of......

Just look on the bright side, like what they always say....
hehe =D

By the way,
moving on to 'real' stuff now....
msn messenger is starting get on my nerves..
I ALWAYS get these ads and links from some contacts especially this one particular contact...
All of them are links to adult content sites...
What THE..???!!!

Guess its some kind of msn virus or something like that??
Im concerned that i might be one of those
contacts who'll unconsciously being used to send these dirty links to people...

God how embarassing...haha..

Alrite then, im getting SO sleeeeeeepy..
I think i can pass out anytime now..

NiteyNite!!
ZZzzzzzzzz....

2009-05-15T19:04:00.006+08:00

Aaaarrgghh!!!!
This is the WORST day of my life EVER!!!

I screwed up my MMIC interview/ quiz!
Ive no idea it'll be this baaaddd...
All the qns that were posted to me was not in the notes....!!
they were not what ive been studying for..

and how can i possibly missed out some
easy questions that were discussed beforehand??

I was really blank during the interview..
Its like, i know the answer, but my brain just dont work with me!!!
Whatever i said as my answer are not what i originally wanted to say..

???!!!!!

So I got 2 qns wrong...
I feel SOOO stupid especially in front of my groupmates!!

Uggghhh...they're so smart and im like so dumb...
Gosh i feel like hitting myself so bad...

I CANNOT let my marks be affected because of this pathetic interview..
All the forthcoming tests, u BETTER watch out..!!
Im going to tackle u all like im a machine gun..

So be prepared...

Siighhhh..
I still cannot figure out how can i be so dumb..
I need to do something to keep my mind off this...

2009-05-14T16:04:00.006+08:00

Heeyyyy there..
Just got back from school...

There was CCHEM presentation today..
U know what..
It freaking sucked...
I wasnt even able to start on my part n the teacher told us to stop...
''Err,u guys are Out of point....''
AGAIN??!!

Hmmm.. pity sherman...
guess he's going to be so stressed out...
The first time we were out of point, he's already pissed off..
So i think its madness now..haha

Anyway ive no idea why but today i feel so ****ed up!!!
Seriously i dont know whats wrong with me... !!
Uggghhh...=X
Ive been feeling like this all thru school today..

Btw
Tomorrow there's MMIC interview...
someone told me its up to ur luck...
choose a number and u'll see what qn u get..
So ive no freakin idea what to expect..

Heck, i think im going to hit myself now...
I think its PMS...
coz i dont know why exactly do i feel like this!!

So, i guess its time to listen to some music and relax myself..
Hope that'll help....

See ya later...=)

2009-05-13T09:39:00.004+08:00

Haha i feel sooo pathetic...
You wanna know why??

Because....
I thought there's a tutorial class this morning at 9...
so i was rushing like mad to get to school..
reached at 9.05,
but then nobody's there!!

Obviously there's no tutorial and obviously im so dumb..
But thats okay..
The terrible thing is that i wasted $10.80 for taxi fare!!
Ugghh!! i can spend that amount on some other impt stuffs instead...
Dammit

Hmm...nevermind...
its just that i cant stand wasting precious money on totally unnecessary things...
Haha..my bad luck i guess...

Alrite then im at library using the pc...
will be stuck here till 1pm...
got to read up on haem and mmic...

See ya later =D

2009-05-11T22:11:00.008+08:00

Heyy...
just got back from school....=)

Anyways..
watched the Amazing Race 14 this morning..
Tammy and Victor won..
hmm...what do i think??
err, i think this season's not satisfying enough...
Ive been rooting for Keisha and Jen..
but too bad, they left before entering the final leg...

Season 13 was great though..
Nick and Starr really deserved the win..
and they're extremely competitive...
the final race to the finish line for season 13 was much more nerve wracking...
and thats what makes it great...

NOW,
i just got hooked on to a new song.....sh*t..
it just keeps playing in my head over and over again!!
Have u heard Crack a Bottle by Eminem??
Thats the one...

But i dont really mind it much...
coz Eminem's one of my favourite artists...
that guy needs help though...
some counseling maybe??
I think he's been going thru a hard life....

Well it no secret anymore..
he already told the public abt it during an interview...
Nah, love him anyways....=)

By the wayy,
im extreeeemmmely nervous abt this Friday's MMIC grp interview cum quiz...
What if im not able to answer the qns and blank out?
I'll be making a fool out of myself infront of my groupmates..
its a shame coz they're reaally smart...

Hmm...hope its not going to be that bad...
Keeping my fingers crossed!!!
=)

2009-05-10T12:12:00.040+08:00

Which of the Seven Deadly Sins am I?
Result: ENVY
What is it: Envy is the desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation.

I dont deny it..
i took many similar tests, and the same result appears.
Ahh heck, everyone has their own deadly sin that they're prone to commit.

So its not something to be embarassed about..

I do agree with the result though...
Envy is one of the seven sins that i see in myself as pretty apparent...
Got to improve on that...XD

SECOND FOR ME IS THE SIN OF GREED/AVARICE

AND PRIDE/VANITY COMES IN THIRD....

Though none of the seven results you will get is anything but bad qualities, they're some sort of an eye opener...

Hmm..greed comes in 2nd? Yeah i dont doubt it...
Materialism gets me some times...
BUT i dont hope n wait for people to get me things..
i work it for myself...
SO as much as greed not being a good thing,
it actually spurs me to push myself harder to get what i want...

So, i guess its not that bad...

Vanity comes in third? I cant agree more...
But i dont consider it as vanity for me...
more like self-consciousness...
yup, THATS THE WORD...

there's nothing in me to be vain about..

BUT
Im utterly self-conscious...
i MUST work on that in order to improve myself...

And if u didnt know, the Seven Sins are: Envy, Lust, Greed,
Sloth, Wrath, Vanity and Gluttony

I scored LAST for Wrath..yay!!

Haha..means im not easily angered..

and not a troublemaker and will never ever get angry...=P

PSYCH..!!

Haha..NO WAY..ive grown out of it...

err, sort of...

Anyway,

Its NOT a good thing actually...

Not when u cant express urself....

Ughh..what a downer..

Well, Fitri wants me to take this test
badly and he predicted the result to be Envy..
Ive no freakin idea how he guessed it right...
Dammit...

Alrightey then, going back to study table..
BBank quiz 1 is right around the corner...

See Ya...=D

2009-05-02T22:28:00.010+08:00

See u, breathe u, i want to be u..
A LA LA LA-A LA LA LA
LoL..one more song stuck in my head..
only TIME will get it off...
but im pretty sure its NOT anytime soon...

Its, well, boring ol' Saturday..
thought of going to the
Anugerah auditions to take a
peek coz a frend of mine is auditioning...

But i cant go, coz im kinda busy with project..NERD much??..shit

Anyway..
i just saw somEthing sooo funny on TV..
You know sometimes there's a
reporter on site telling u the news..
Well not really news, more of
a documentary on Discovery Channel...
There's this one reporter telling stories on some pigs..
(nah,nothing abt the swine flu)...

And there's this one moment
where in the background coincidentally there's 2 farm
horses humping each other...u know what i mean..
HAHA..horses??!! TOO funny...

Spongebob's hilarious too...
he never fails to amuse me with his stupidity..
Never miss any spongebob episodes!!
My fav cartoon of all time...=D
I hate Patrick though..
he disgusts me with everything he does...=X

Looking forward to uniting with all the four of u tomorrow!!
Maybe this is our last before some time to come??
Not very frequently do we get
to meet altogether without someone busy w something else..
So make this count!!! =D

Alrightey..
going off to land on my bed now..
Take Care ;p

2009-04-30T20:02:00.009+08:00

Oh Goddddd.....
Its kinda hard when people misunderstands u huh?
Well its parts n parcels of life..
that i have to freakin deal with..
Gosh, what a douchebag...

Anyway...
putting that aside,
school's been strangling me like hell!
Its just the 2nd week and work's been non-stop..
And what do these people say..?
Poly life is the most fun and interesting sch life u can have..
YEAH RIGHT
experience it YOURSELF at TP...

Well at least my pbl grp is great..
Great n nice n hardworking people in there..
I really have to push myself to the limits..haha
im pretty bad in group discussions coz im pretty slow in processing informations...
my brain's only productive when im alone...
So i REALLLYY NEEEED TO...
well, i dont know what exactly i need to do...
But, maybe wake up a little...

Btw Its very strange to have people who
u didnt know at all in the same group as you..
especially for smtg big like PBL..
BUT surprisingly i dont feel uncomfortable at all..
=D

Oh yeah BY THE WAY
SOMEONE just accidentally let out a huge secret
and left everyone in silence...
I was like 'What the.....?!''
I couldnt believe what i was hearing....

But mostly now i kinda pity that person...
Mr Y, it sucks to be you isnt it...?
Haaaiixxx...

Only I knew what he was hiding all along
but too bad, its already been said..
if only theres a time machine to undo it all..
How YOU wish..

Anyways
i know ure embarrased..
but i'll always be there when u need help ok..??
I know im sarcastic and stuff but haha, u totally know how i am like..
I'll never break a promise...mark my words =)

By the way,
The new scent on you is utterly familiar..
I think ive smelled it on someone before..
cough -me- cough

Haha,
okay okay i dont blame u..
Its kinda hard to resist a scent like that..
You just HAVE to have it...!!

Anyway,moving on...
Talking abt sports,i mean football,
Manchester seems like they're starting to suck isnt it???
WHY ManU why??
I know that they're at the top now, but they're not really as good as before.

Probably coz Ferguson didnt put front
the good ones when they need it...
Well thats MY opinion..
But what really makes me happy
is to see liverpool's defeat by Chelsea in the Champions League...
LOL at the liverpool fans..
particularly this 1 fan..ehem2
haha

Lol..
alrightey i think i can pass out anytime now..
My stomach is seriously mad at me..
she's been growling and groaning for the past 2 hrs..

[Glitterfy.com - *Glitter Words*]

2009-04-18T15:11:00.012+08:00

So here i am again.
Im slowly getting inactive in Blogger..
But nope, i'll not be gone forevr..
(as if anyone cares...haha XD)

School(oh goddd) is starting in 2 days time and i HATE IT!!!!
There IS a particular reason why ..
And if i get RID of that 1 reason for good,School wont be as dreadful anymore..
But too BAD,theres nothing i can do to get rid of that one reason...
Nope, not telling u what is it....

Now how i REALLY wish theres a time machine in my hands..
So that i can fast forward the time to when i finally got my degree and a job..
and have a good fixed pay...haiiiizzzz

Around 6-7 more years to go...aarrrgghhhh

Anyway,enough of ranting..
Nothing special for THIS holiday..

EXCEPT for the fact that i got winked at by some gorgeous guy
while taking the basic theory test at the driving centre last week...*blushhh**

He was sitting across me for the whole hour and GOD knows how nervous i was getting...

But TOO BADDDD, i had to go off before him coz i finished first...when i was abt to leave he smiled at me and i smiled back and he winked and i fainted!! (well, almost..haha)

Oh, and I PASSED!!!

Yayyy =D

I was so damn nervous when i was waiting for the result screen to pop out..
But luckily, i dont need to retake again..
now for my final theory test and practical...cant wait! =)

oh and hopefully the guy passed and may we both meet again next time for final theory test...=P

Hmmm...yeah thats about it...thats one of the few good things that happened this holiday..

Im getting a little concerned abt my studies though...
my grades are dropping..
i guess its expected for most ppl, but i dont know what to expect for the nest coming semesters...just keep my fingers crossed..

Im planning on becoming a Biology teacher in sec sch..then hopefully move on to be a lecturer..coz i think its cool and its a secure job..

But its not a confirmed decision...
i'll try seeing how the laboratory jobs feels like during my attachment...

if i like it then i'll reconsider..
if i dont then i guess teaching is my definite choice....
but the subject HAS to be Biology of course...=)

Well, just pray this year would be better than the previous one...
**sigh**

Ok now, have to go coz im heading to Mustafa Centre to buy some stuffs..
My shopping list:
Victoria' Secret LoveSpell Body Mist/Spray and perfume
Neutrogena Stress-free Acne Control Scrub
New casing for my handphone--its broken
Survey the digital cameras--woohooo!!
And im thinking of buying more bangless...

And my mom wanna buy some other groceries and stuffs...

Why Mustafa, u ask?
Hahaha, coz i like it there..
esp when u go at 12am onwards when there's
little people around..(its 24 hrs alrite)

PLUS there plenty of stuffs u can
find there thats not found everywhere else..
Like the VS perfume..
u can find more of the range in Mustafa than any other places..

And the electronics department has A WHOLE LOT of
brands that u can choose from....
You shld try gg there if u havent...

BUT i dont recommend going there on sat/sun...
coz theres a LOT of bangladesh workers there spending
their free time walking around...

NOT only in Mustafa but also everywhere in Little India/Serangoon..
Its kinda DANGEROUS u know...

The best time is in the morning or if u dont mind, LATE at night..
like me, who's a nocturnal..hehe =D

Ok then, now im getting REALLY late..
havent yet wore my headscarf..
Alritey....BYE !!

***tAKEcARE =p***

2009-03-15T14:51:00.004+08:00

March 15, Sunday..
And im at home with NOTHING to do
Blame the heavy rain..!!

Still erm..around 1mth plus to go before sch reopens..
Aaargh i hate sch now..
Coz my grade are dropping!!
Somebody HELP ME!!

Aniwaes
one more engagement just passed..
wow now the clock's really ticking faaassst

Hey and guess wat?!
I just applied for my driving license!!
Hehehehe....

Planning to take Class 3..
Im taking private lessons coz its waaayy cheaper..XD
My basic theory test is on 7th April..
And ive not even started studying yet!!
The book's like lying on my desk getting dustier n dustier...

Heheheh..

So for now im kinda waiting for calls for relief teaching..
And im planning to do some volunteering work and pretend to be good citizens (cedebahh..) with Ms Fifi..

Hopefully we can meet good people there..
Alrightey then..
Till here people..

TkCare!!!!! =D

Whaaaatts uP!!

2009-02-18T21:51:00.015+08:00

WooT wOOT!!
hELLO again..=)

Gosh im so drained after mugging for exams..
BUT somehow my focus is diverted to the pc..
Well, i guess thats ok..i freakin need a break =X

By the way there's this one new song- Just like me by Jamie Fox feat TI- which keeps resounding in my head over n over again..i cant get it off!!

Aargh im always in this kind of situation...guess i just have to deal with it.

Oh, i got something interesting to tell..
abt this personality test thingyyy
Well just in case u want to know urself better=D

Yeah so there was this Myers Briggs Typology test where in the end of it your result will be a four letter word combination stating what type of person u are.
Im an ISFJ labelled as 'The Nurturer'..

I-Introverted
S-Sensing
F-Feeling
J-Judging

It basically tells whether im inclined to be an:
introvert(I) / extrovert(E),
use my senses(S) / intuition(N),
use my feeling(F) / thinking(T) when making decisions,
and do i judge(J) / perceive(P)....

And the best thing is that there's this whole description abt portraits of an ISFJ, careers that matches for an ISFJ, famous ISFJ people and the love match for an ISFJ...

For me as an ISFJ, i will match perfectly with either an ESFP/ESTP guy...
and i also realise all the strengths and weaknesses that i have as an ISFJ..and wow its all so true!

Its kind of a nerdy thingy (like what 'someone' said), but its cool..seriously u should try it =)

And 1 funny thing's that Ms Fifi took the test and she's an ESFP-The Performer:
-Extroverted
-Sensing
-Feeling
-Perceiving

I was like WOW!!
Well my love match is an ESFP too,
so No wonder i could get along SO well with her!

haha
So now i just have to find a GUY version of her..LoL
And she have to find a guy version of me, an ISFJ, as her bf huh..HAHA

LoL
OK seriously if u wanna get to know more abt urself n stuff go try it!

Test link:
http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp
Description of ur type link: http://www.personalitypage.com/portraits.html

Alrighty now, guess ive been hooked on too long to the pc, gotta go back to the study table...hehe

Byeeee ;D

layouts myspace

2009-02-05T23:01:00.011+08:00

HEYYYY
back again aft like 2 months not blogging...
im tired..n lazzzyyyyy..

So that day someone gave me a treat..
for nothing that i did..just out of pure sincerity...
haha..
thanks alot!
Luckily im not the type who eats alot..
if not i guess u'll be broke already huh..

And out of the blue i bumped onto a good old friend of mine..
its been more than 10 years since i met this guy..
haha, i remember when we used to sit together in class n ALWAYS fight!!

I'll draw on ur table and u'll draw on mine...haha
in the end we both got detention for vandalism..LOL
Aaahhh the good old days....XD

Oh yeah and recently Kak Fatimah's wedding was held
and i was kept prettty busy helping out n stuff..but it was fun..
OMG and she was so gorgeous..like some arabian princess..haha

it was the 1st time i saw the groom..
he seems like a really nice guy..though i dont really know him for sure.

Oh, and the bride n groom dance was epic!!
Haha i didnt know they'd break it down like that..really unexpected!
They were dancing when wearing black gown n black tuxedo..how nice is that..

Arent they lovely...? =DAll the men in black...
Time to eat! =D

Then when its karaoke time Taufik sang his latest song on his album-Nafasku..
he got really scared aft that cause he's not supposed to do that..

Well i dont know much abt the shitty rule but it says no proffesional singers/celebs r allowed to sing for ceremonies just like that...
But hey, it was HIS cousin's wedding too...so we dont give a damn actually..

One thing i regret is not being able to sing and show off my voice...cehhh..hahha
Well i was kinda reluctant but wanting to....so in the end i missed the chance.
Any way, as if my voice's THAT nice...

I used to sing with my uncle..he's a singing pro..
we used to duet but now it seems pretty awkward n a little scary for me.

But nah, one day i'll gather up enough courage to finally sing...then maybe duet with Taufik or something...hehe...

Overall the wedding was really glamorous..it IS my dream wedding..
i want mine to be exactly like it..!!
And OMG when she wore the Victorian gown with the 'slanted' hat...i was kinda speechless actually.. I freakin want that costume for my wedding!!! =0

OOOKKKK now..
enough of blogging...its time to sleep...
I'll probably dream of my wedding tonight...hehe

;D

2008-12-30T21:56:00.009+08:00

So....
recently went to kak yarni's engagement
and i had loads of fun that day...

And it seems like all the cousins unite n really bond with each other then..
i really treasure those moments..

Nowadays we all rarely meet n get together n have fun like the good old days..
Due to some circumstances..
But like they say, the further we get, the more we miss one another. =)

And ehem2...
something so awkward happen to ms smiley that day n it gave her insomnia..haha
Ish ish ish....

Anyway, congrats kak yarni..
i hope that this engagement will last till the day of your marriage--one n a half yrs frm now!=)

And i wish u all the best!! ;D

Here's some pic that i cant help grabbing frm kak nurul n ms smiley's blog..haha..
Sorry the pics r abit blurrrr...

Every body Say Cheeeeeeesse!! LoL=D
Kak nurul,kak faizah n haslinda (the malay news anchor--she's not here for news report though! haha)
Frm left= me,fifi,nabilah,ika,kaknurul,kakfaizah,syafiq..=D
Some of my lovely cousins with the pretty bride..wohoo=D

2008-12-22T19:26:00.005+08:00

Its been supppeeer long since i blogged.
Reason is, my pc broke down so i cant do anything.
So today i went to some faraway business park to repair it.
Its like damn tiring!
BUT STILL
when i came back home
DAMN
the audio isnt working.....
SO
I guess i have to strangle the customer service officer=X

Haizzzz
But luckily some cute little angel is free to accompany me..haha

ANyway,
term tests r already over a long time ago.
I feel pretty much contented with it.
except for ddct paper that really sucked.

And i also spent around 1wk with ms smiley and i had a great time with her.
She was even there for my birthday so thx a lot! =D

We'll meet again this saturday for ur sis engagement!!
Im sure ure really excited abt it.

Hmmm..
Seems like time's passing really fast.
She's getting engaged and my cousin's getting married and stuff like that.
Its getting kinda scary that most ppl seem to be getting further n further away as they move on with their lives.

it makes me wonder what lies ahead for me.
But for now i'll just do what i do best n hopefully everyting will turn out right for me in the future.
And the same goes for everyone close to me =)

2008-11-17T20:07:00.017+08:00

TODAYYY
There's TPRAWKS at my campus..
and me, nadiah n din r involved.
BUT actually we did nothing much.
Basically just help out with the lab experiments and microscopy for the juniors.
And we got the chance to act like big brothers n sisters..hehe..
Basically the students were from sec3 and 4 who signed up for this open house thing.
Awwww if i had known i'd asked ms smileyyy to go too..then it'll be FUN!!

Recently met with Fifi..
She got a new ehem2 ah..
HAI, untung sangatlah dia tu eh..
banyak org nak..heheh =)
OKLAH2 nanti kembang pulak dia.
Btw we went nyai's house to visit her as usual..

But a few days back we both camwhored by clarke quay n esplanade.
Before some fuckin retarded guy kept eyeing on us the whole time. Fifi was so pissed off ah. But i dont give a damn.The wierd thing is dat he was on the phone talking to his gf or something, but eyes cannot keep themselves off us. He shld get his eyes poked by a knife sia. SUPERRRR IRRITATING.

And yeah, as we're taking pics, he's loooking...looking...PLUS he's just sitting right in front of us..like **** ah..
BUT then again,WE dont give a damn!!! Hahaha..=DBut oh well...wahateverrrr lah.
haha..
I saw some gd-looking caucasians..hehe..
Not some, a hell lot,i mean..=D

Thanks for taking me to these places Msss Fifi..haha
I'll forever be a stay-at-home person without u..heheh..
So now she's like the guide n im like the tourist..
Coz i rilli dunno much abt places in S'pore..
How freakin pathetic is that...LOL

OKEY dokeyy..
Gotta sleeeeeeep nooooowwwww...
BoiBoi=)

2008-11-12T23:07:00.011+08:00

I got my mails today from Mr Postman!!
2 boxes of Crest Whitestrips, Mac EYeliner,Mac Concealer, and a few Stila stuffs.
I loooove cREST Whitestrips..they work super gooOoOd..

Im so disapointed with this country coz they dont sell that stuff here!!

I had to search n search for an online site that sells this thing. Its a miracle i found it.
And its finally in my hands now!

Stila stuffs are friggin expensive.But i just cnt let go of the palettes.They're SO prettyyyyyy..But then again, now i dont think its worth buying so much. Enough is enough.....LOL

And im really NOT able to buy Vera Wang perfume now..
Darn why dont they sell the smaller bottle?!
The large one costs like $90 and i dont wanna waste so much on 1 perfume.
Even Ms Smileyyy dont want to waste so much on that...

Hmmmphhh...
Well at least i got my Ralph Lauren..it smells heavennnlllyyy..
And im gonna get my Dior Addict Perfume soon!!

I fell in love with the perfume the moment i smell it on Stella during lab.
It smells pretty strong on her even through the labcoat.

I just have to control my addiction to perfumes.AAARGH
Im gonna be sooo broke soon.

Ms Smiley, and even Jannah once called me materialistic..NO!!!!
IM NOT MATERIALISTIC..IM NOT MATERIALISTIC..
IS that a good thing or a bad thing?

Well i dont deny it..they're kinda right..
BUT i only spend on certain stuffs..
i dont splurge on shoes n clothes that much...
So im not that baddd....am i?

But aniwaes i need to prove that im not anymore..

Ive GOTTT to control..got to control...got to control...

=)

2008-11-05T22:11:00.008+08:00

YAY!!!
Obama for President!!

Well i dont know why i even bother abt US politics, but to tell u the truth, i watched almost all of obama's campaigns on youtube, and i assure u there's no one better to change the world and stop the war and bring world peace than Obama (NOT McCain!)...

If u'd just listen to his speeches than u'll know what im talking abt. And eventually its not just change to America, but change to the world!! FINALLY world peace is coming closer to us..well hopefully it'll happen..its all in the hands of Mr Obama..hehe..

OKAY now...enough of the elections.

My brother has finally came back..YAY =D
We greeted him at the airport terminal 2 at around 12am and reached home at almost 2am. The timing freakin sucks..departure time is 6am and arrival time is 12 am..how nice is that..

Anyway b4 that me and my family went to Popeyes at Terminal 3 to eat and toured around the airport..i love Popeyes' stuffs but the price is pretty upscale compared to kfc or Mac..
But overall its nice.

So he came back with his mates and brought this HUGE All Blacks poster..and of course, All Blacks won...
And he bought me this cute Spongebob Squarepants plush toy..well at least he remembered me...And i LOVE Spongebob =)

For Hidhir, he got him this soccer jersey that he's been bragging abt coz for the 1st time he got an original jersey..haha
And he got some shin guards and other soccer stuffs..

Lucky him...

Well i guess the house is going to be hectic and SO not peaceful again, with the two together again..

Hahahaha
Okay now..
I reaaallly need to get some sleep...
My eyes are halfway closed already....
Bye =)

Projectssss =( and Rugby!!! =D

2008-10-30T03:14:00.016+08:00

Wow this sem looks like its gonna be preettty hard.
Projects n projects...sigghhhh

For ddct my group was kinda ok.Lots of nice people..
Awww but nadiah's not in the same grp as me.....

Anw its scary they all choose me as the leader coz I dont know anything about PBL and FILA chart. Haha...=X

But nah, not to worry.

CSAS is gonna be hectic too..
My csas grp was not bad at all though..
With all these projects i dont think i can make time for other stuffs..
But i know i MUST spend more time studying though..n i'll be in the library most of the time when im free...(aargh,im a nerd!!)

Hmmmm..
Btw i kinda miss my brother who's far far away now...
Hope he's fine with his fellow rugby lads....=X
Probably enjoying himself now i guess.

And the BEST thing is that he got to watch
the New Zealand All Blacks Vs Australian Wallabies rugby match LIVE!! And for free!!
Aaarghh!!! how i wished i was there. U can hear the HAKA so louuudddd if u're there!! How cool is that!! Aaargh!!(Im dyinggggg...)

All Blacks FTW!! OMG i wanna see Daniel Carter sooo freakin much!! =0

Too bad, i just have to see his outrageously handsome face on tv.

Hmmm, but problem is i didnt see any news on that upcoming match on Supersports..i really wanna watch in case my brother's freakin ''handsome'' face appears...haha i'll be LMAO-ing!!

Anw, i guessss im starting to get soo jealous of him now..haha

And as for Fitri,Being the rugby freak that he is, he just cant stop feeling jealoussss too..haha...ur time will come soon lah k.. ONE FINE DAY we'll go to New Zealand and watch all the All Blacks match we want...=D

Okayyyy now i guess im done ranting already.
Time to watch some tv....dont miss me! =P

Bye Bye!!!!!

Schoooolll Sucks

2008-10-23T16:37:00.000+08:00

Updatessss Updatesss....

First of all, school sucks to the max
I dont know why but i feel so not energetic to go school again..
BUT
I freakin GOT to pull up my socks for this sem.
There's NO turning back...

Plus timetable's changed and i hate it!
Some of my close friends r separated frm me and some other ppl joins my class this sem for certain subjects..

Arrghh!!
Why must there be changes to so many things??
i hate CHANGE...

Anyway,
recently i went out with my beesttttest buddiesss
but its a little different than usual cos something so touching happens..

I was soooo excited abt it and im so happy now that they're together.

We four went out for a movie and sat at the back seats.
Me and Fitri knew that Khai wanted to confess his feelings for his longtime crush, like what he told us. so since he already boost up his courage to finally confess, we agreed to work with him. So halfway thru me and Fitri left the theatre giving some white lie as a reason (anyway the movie sucked so we dont mind not watching fully..) AND we left Khai to do what he wanna do....ehem2

Hahaha..
So after the movie we acted as if we didnt know what happened.
But it was SO obvious that Jannah was blushing like hell after all that.

She didnt want us to know so she didnt say anything abt it. But obviously we all know what happened...hehe..

I remember that time i was so excited for them. They've been having feelings for each other but never confessed and never really make any moves...but now the wait's over!!

BUT the irritating thing is that Khai kept asking me when's gonna be my turn. WHAT??
Hahaa...Well for me, i've got no time for relationships and my life now is devoted to achieving my ambition and that's it. Anyway, it'll happen when it happens...

Yeeahhh ;D
Well im gonna miss my best friends coz school already started.
BORRING
Hope we meet when there's time!!

Hmm...okay now i feel much better..well sch still sucks but im cool now after gossiping abt them. HAHA

Okkey Dokkey..
Tkcreeee =D

PS: ''And Yeah that's sexy sexy sexy''...LoL..i love that song..Janet Jackson FTW!!!

Boreeedd

2008-09-26T14:34:00.000+08:00

Yeah im bored to death coz of holidays
There's literally NOTHING exciting to do.
Except for maybe making new distant online friends.
Now i have friends from Australia,
Nebraska, Ohio,LA and some more i dont bother writing.
I realise that people from other western countries can be sooo nice.
I soooo wanna go to these countries coz im freakin tired of staying in Singapore.
Im tired of the people here.. well at least people that i've met. Most, not all.
I want to try some new stuffs but..chances are i wont be able to anyways..
But im very sure i'll be on my way sooner or later.

Oh yeah..
And the worse thing of all my results for this sem SUCKS!!!!
Im so so so soooo friggin mad at myself for the shitty marks.
Nevermind, nex sem try harder...

Haizzzz

But on the bright side,
I cant wait for Raya coz im tired of staying home and doing the same stuffs.
And basically ive been doing all the chores and cleaning up for raya.
and its so boring.

As much as i want school to start,
my results are buggin me still.
but stay strong!! i will perservere
Cehh...

haha
Signing off now..

Exams OVER!!

2008-08-29T22:58:00.001+08:00

EXAMS OVER!!!
BUT...
I dont feel good at all abt it
Coz i didnt think i did the last paper well..
OH GOD im scared if i fail it or something..
seriously, AIMM paper sucked..

Nah, put that aside..
Im done with thinking abt studies for this one month.
Now its time to chill!!
Yeah =D

Went out with Ms Siti Syafiqah just now...
Haha..
Well basically its just normal stuffs...

we usually meet to chat and eat
and talk abt somethings private and yeah..
Dont really focus on buying stuffs so much..
And basically she's all grown up now..
good change so far..

Hehehe...
And i got home at around 8
and its wierd coz i feel that
there's nothing much to do at home..
its gonna be boring at home...plus with all the fasting...
no way im hanging out..

But im searching for a temporary job now..
Got an admin job at a company for 1 mth...
hopefully the people r good there...

Hmm...
and yeah, now im free to
go back to my computer addiction..haha....

Without having to feel guilty abt anything..

Yay!!
Okayy now..
See ya later=)

Im all Streessssed up!!

2008-08-15T21:59:00.000+08:00

Things are like hectic lately..
Not the things around me, but things inside my brain.

Final year exams are reeeaally nearing..
Im gonna die!!

DaRN, i still must go to school during the study week for revision.
I dont really think its necessary,
but i cant afford to miss any clues
or tips the lecturer might give..

Im really cracking my brain to the max now.
I kept dreaming of getting gpa 3.6-3.7 this sem,
and this is the time to work for it..
This is IT!!

Aargh..I cannot afford to slack anymore!
You know what, Im definitely NOT the kind of person that
is like SOOO hardworking like most ppl in my class..

I tend to slack alot but ppl never really see it.
I slack like heck at home..
Nobody really knows, but im a computer addict..SHHH..=p

Oh GoD..
NOW there's no such thing as SLACKING..
ITS MUGGING+MUGGING+MUGGING...
Or else = HELL...

Im gonna work my way to university..
I can do it!!!

Hmmm...
I know, i know..
Im a little pathetic now..
Suddenly become so much like a Nerd-ass..
But that's how it's gg to be till exams over..

So till next time=P

=D

2008-07-30T19:11:00.000+08:00

Im kinda bored but busy at the
same time coz of studies...
Anyway today was an OK day but pretty boring..
Very Boring actually

But YESTERDAY..........

Yesterday i had French Role Play!!
Mr Giuliano wasnt in sch so Mr Jerome took over!!

OH GoD I was freaking nervous at that time..
I used to have a crush on him (I still do actually)
So just imagine how nerve wracking it was to act in front of him!

But thank god its over
And i Got Quite a good decent high mark..YEAH=D

Ohhh..!!

U know what just now i was browsing
thru youtube like usual and i saw
this man named Joseph Hall who is an impersonator
of Elvis Presley in America's got Talent show..

And BoY he was SmoKin'HOT!!!!
i'LL SAY THAT AGAIN..
HOT!!

His features are SO out of this world and he's terribly gorgeous!

I guarantee ive never seen a guy as gorgeous as him!
His act was OK(coz im not an elvis presley fan btw)...
but his face just blew my mind...

Guess the ladies go crazy for him and the guys...
erm, fear him maybe..hahaha..

Here's the video of him btw...WATCH!!

Aaargh! =(

2008-07-23T19:32:00.000+08:00

Had school for a couple of hours today
Had fpath quiz and its driving me nutsss
I really hate topic 3.1 on thrombosis..
Its such a killer

Met him a couple of times in sch..
Hmmm...
I just cant get him out of my head..
My studies all r affected..
He's a killer too

And btw why does he ALWAYS wear black huh?
And sometimes his outfit is really funny..
hahaha

And just now...
Surprising and irritating at the same time..
Coz i was bombarded with qns and qns abt Taufik
Haixx...
Suddenly the Taufik fever happens again
I thought it was YEARS since he won the Singapore idol..
Its rotten already lah...
Ooops! haha...

And OBVIOUSLY it was Fitri who started it all
Im gonna KILL U shithead!!
Knowing the big mouth he is,
eventually all of his close friends know that im Taufik's cousin..
And APPARENTLY he's enjoying the fame too huh...
=XXX

Mr Fitri, I am SO not free to answer all the qns as if I'm the singapore idol..
Why dont U take my place huh??
U think its easy?

What's worse is when these ppl ask me to ask taufik for autographs!
Plus personal messages and wishes frm him lah, asking for his hp number lah....
bla bla bla

Like wth??!

When ON EARTH am i gonna find time to do that?
Im too busy for all that stuff okay.....

So Mr Fitri, again, please please please zip ur mouth next time k..=D

No offence Mr Bigmouth
Muahahaha

OK..

Enough of that..
Suddenly i feel like blogging abt him..
The guy in BLACK..
Haixxx
This kind of anxious-for-nothing feeling always gets me..

He dont even know a thing and i dont want him to know either..
It'll spoil the whole thing..
But i still have to find a chance to talk to him..
Just to make friends..
I did, but its merely a few words that dont mean anything..

Haixxx..
Hope there'll be a time when we can talk long enough..
He's a nice person, and im not scared of conversing w him..
But i hadnt had a chance to..

But im sure there'll be..
Sooner or Later..
**wink**

Salut!!

2008-07-23T13:45:00.000+08:00

Things are like **** lately
And my never ending emotions are KILLING me!

For me, how i feel determines how i live
And i always feel this loneliness and this --misery..??
Ah heck i dunno what's happening to me!!!!
Im super ****ed up right now.

Plus, i got a new infatuation,crush??
Wtv u call it, it is bothering me and my studies!!!
Get out of my mind Mister! Please....

Why oh why do i fall for people SO easily???
Hmmm..
But guys that i fall for are usually similar in some ways..

Not telling u how.....

ArGHH SHIT!!!
Cant i just rest in peace for a while??
I am making life hard for myself!! LITERALLY
How is that possible??
U might be wondering..

U wanna know why???

I'll tell u why...

Because.................

I dont know...
i really dont
Coz My life is SO complicated..

It cannot be described by words..
Its too complex for the human mind to understand

Really..

OKAY I guess im talking SHIT now..

2008-07-06T18:56:00.000+08:00

Heyy Hello Bello!!

Bad news,Im still sick like heck..
Good news, nah....u were expecting it rite??Heheh..
No gd news at all for me these days...sigh

Hey btw u noe wad,
I just watched a video on youtube..

And since i looove documentaries i viewed an
astronomical documentary abt space--The Universe--which is
also on The History Channel by the way..

And Wow, u know that sometimes they kinda
interview experts to explain abt these stuffs rite,
and so there's this 1 PhD astrology researcher that's like ...??!!

Keeping in mind her qualifications
and what she works as, this 26yr yr old PhD woman is damn EMO!

She has red n purple hair, wear black clothes,
have sky high stockings that r striped pink-black...

And mind u, She's a Professor! A Researcher! Has A PhD!
So unlikely of doctors..but cool..

She does fire twirling as a hobby sometimes at
night while working as a PhD researcher
at a university on astronomy by day...

Gosh, guess She's really one in a million brainiacs
out there that has got style and own personality..

I guess sometimes people dont really accept
the way she is, bt i dont think its
a huge matter coz she's got a doctorate..!

Wow i really want to see one lecturer
in school dressed up n behave that way...
Cool Proffesor huh..way to go!

hahaha!!
And here's some vids that i found that's
pretty interesting...talking abt DOOMSDAY!!!

Well asteroids r one of the possibilities,
so it can cause it without a doubt..

Btw the emo researcher is not in this vid..
she's somewhere in other similar vids on youtube..
her name's Beth Biller....Or shld i say Dr Beth Biller..

Okie Dokzz
Nites!!

2008-07-05T17:47:00.000+08:00

Bluekkk..!!
I just puked this morning
and my whole body terribly sick!

On friday i'd to leave school
halfway coz i REALLY cannot stand it.
Feels like something's drilling thru my brain sia

Plus my fever and nausea..
OMG i cannot imagine what'll
happen if i stay in school much longer..
Bt unfortunately i hv to leave nadiah alone for MGEN lab..

Then frm the moment i reach
home ard 2 plus i slept till its lyke 9pm!
Omg i really feel like a sicko
All thanks to the everyday cold drinks..=X

Hmm...
Ohh and school's driving me nuts!
There's surely a HELL lot of things to revise on..
And oh god i dont think i can make it..
but hopefully i will..

=)

2008-07-01T22:51:00.000+08:00

Aargh! These days feels like crap..=(

I dont know why, but i just dont feel right
everytime and i dont feel as energetic
and eager to go to school and stuff..

I created a friendster profile recently but i alwyas feel like going back to blogging coz this is where serious matters come in..

Hmm..
And recently i feel down and really --
Disappointed..??
Yeah maybe, bt i dont know what exactly im disappointed with..
Im disapointed with myself, that's one..
Bt there's other things also that im getting tired of.

Haizzz..
I feel like i need time alone at home and even in school..
Just alone
Coz i feel like crap abt myself
Aaargh i dunno what's happening!!
Its not really abt studies..

If only there's someone who can understand
and be there for me always.
Past memories come to haunt me again..
And i hate it so much.

Hmmm...
Sometimes i just feel that i could understand myself better
People might mistook for who i am, but im apparently just a simple girl who have so much troubles in her life..
Oh God please make life better for me..

I dont think i can handle this on my own...

2008-06-18T18:13:00.000+08:00

hEll-O,
pretty long since i wrote an entry..
Busy lah kan...

I just got home frm genting
and im damn tired like wad...
PlUS i have to clean up all the mess from the holiday..

Cons Of holidaez...haizz..

Met Fifi (ms smiley) yesterday..
And yeah we talked abt normal stuff that we always talk abt..heh..
Got lah...

Anywaez today's my youngest bro's bdae..
Happy Birthday Hidhir!!!
He's 9 already..i think...hhehe

Hmm..we all r pretty tired to go anywhere to
celebrate coz we just came back frm holiday..

So guess we're just going to order some pizza...Yeah!!
But the cons of ordering pizza--having to face the delivery guy..
Dunno why bt i just dont feel good facing them in my home clothes..
Hahaha...

I know u'll be thinking--What the Buck??
Yea lah i also hv no idea wad's with me..hehe..

Okey Dokzz..
BoiBoi..=D

Tkcre..

=((

2008-05-14T21:38:00.000+08:00

Gosh im sooo having pms today..
Out of da blue..??
I never had pms all my life for heavens sake...=X

Hmm..i dun really know..
Maybe its pms, maybe its just a sudden moodswing...
So what exactly am i feeling..??!

Not really sure actually..hehe..
Mix of anger towards myself (i hv no idea why)
and terrible sadness (dunno why either)..

Haizz..sometimes (most of the time,actually) i feel that im worthless..
Yeah u saw that word...W-O-R-T-H-L-E-S-S...

Ever since young ive always been like this and i have no idea why..
Actually i DO hv an idea why..LoL..

Bt nah, im not gg to tell u..
Its a sacred secret of mine..Haha..

Well as u know it today was a "what-the-heck-is-wrong-with-me" day..
Bt im seasoned to that, so im not gg to
gv a single damning shit to it anymore..

Not for today at least..
I hv to concentrate on my work, so this thing just HAVE to stop bugging me..
Haizzzz...

Nite..=)

2008-05-02T12:50:00.000+08:00

Oh my god!!
I just got a new handphone and its damn cooool!!
Pretty nice, but i dont really like the design on the back..
But nah, nevermind..=)
I love it a lot!!!=)

Anyway yesterday was one heck of a night..
In fact me, hal, and din was like the three mad musketeers who cant stop laughing and laughing like crazy...
Oh my.. Really, halima was like the funniest being on Earth..!!

She cant stop talking and talking abt extremely lame and pathetic stuffs..
And her reactions were soooo funny...!!
Din reaally cnt take it that he got a headache from all that laughing..
I once felt like vomiting my food out coz i cant take the madness..
Ohgod...

Hahaha=p

That happened for more than 4 hrs i think..
The 3 of us really got a 'thing' for getting crazy...
And it only happens when the 3 of us r together...

Guess maybe that's when halima enters the world of her 2nd personality..
The extra hyper version of her...Haha
she said she's got somekind of a split personality..=x
Haha..whatever lah Halima...LoL=)

Wtv it is i'd a great time with u guys..
Hope tis kinda thing wont end huh...
Hehee...

2008-05-01T04:45:00.000+08:00

Damn im dead booorred at school now..
Im at the cybercentre now and
just got warned by the irritating person in charge...

Heellooo??
I didnt even drink okay....
I just brought my water bottle in...
So y r u scolding me??

Nad just went off to meet her bf...
Halima's having tutorial...
The others hving classes also..
Oh gosh i must wait till 3??
Haixxx...

If i'd known there's no lab today i wouldnt have come to sch..
Now ive to wait till 7 for my Toastmasters meeting...
Nah, i guess its not so bad....
Staying at home will be just as boringg...even more boring actually...

Guess i'll have to bear the boredom till 3 b4 halima comes..
Then after that we're gonna watch movie, or go swensens...
Yayy=)
Guess i'll be broke after that..
Oh god.....

Adious=)

2008-04-23T14:19:00.000+08:00

Today there's no school...
for ME that is..haha
so i gotta update my post b4 it'll
get abandoned for a long long time...

But aniwaez im going to be very
busy frm now on..
Bt nah,i dun care, cuz school's great!

Met alot of new classmates,even though
i havent got to know them much yet..

But ive got to say, my class is FULL of
people who looks pretty wild n outgoing (some a little emo),
but all are pretty darn SMART!

Hmm..ive known some of them b4, like jordan, zi shuang,etc....
Bt there's alot of unfamiliar faces...

And...yesterday i had French tutorial n lecture..
Mr Giuliano was my tutor...he's really sweet n VERY nice...

And the French lecturer,Mr Jerome, Oh God!!
He was sooooo gorgeous!!
Not cute, but VERY handsome..
to me at least.....

Well i guess i wont miss any french lectures this sem...LoL..

Hahaha...
and yeah, hope this sem's gonna be just fine=)

Au Revoir!!

And hey, just a few vids that i find REALLY funny..haha=)
Apprecier(enjoy)!!

This will scare the shit out of me...
And here's another..

This is Hilarious! I love the last bit..

One of the best ones...

=)))

2008-04-18T11:37:00.000+08:00

I just got to noe my new class yesterday..
Not too bad i guess..

All my fellow B7 peeps going to BMT ended up
in e same class as me..yay=)

And i found out that quite
alot of nice people r in my class...

And i got FRENCH!!!
wooohooo=)

I bet its gg to b pretty difficult..
bt who cares..

Gosh, but holidaes r going to end very very soon...
Haiz..
Stress is going to start..

Reallll stress.....
My expectations for myself r gg to be high..
Im aiming for 3.7 gpa this sem..

And its gg to be really challenging for me now..
Ppl around me r reallly smart..
But nah, i dun want to think abt it...

Hmm...
guess i'll just hv to enjoy to
the max while i still can! =)

2008-03-22T23:01:00.000+08:00

Im sooooo tired...

Nowadaez im busy...
NOT with school but work!!
And tutoring...tutoring...tutoring.....
Ish ish ish....

NOW im feeling like its beta to stay home
n learn how to appreciate staying at home....
haha..

Anyway,
today was a GREAT DAY!!

Hehehe...
Y??

Coz my family went shopping...
And I got a new wardrobe, my two brothers got a new wardrobe,
and my parents got a new wardrobe!!!
Hoohoho...

And they're not just ANY ordinary wardrobe...
they're pretty cool...
uhh, nice i mean....
Its my dream wardrobe which ive
been wanting all these while...=)

I dun noe why out of da blue my house is like
undergoing some sort of renovation...

Kept Buying this and that....
And suddenly we're like wastin money...
But nah, who cares...
Once in a while rite........
Hehehe..

Hmmm...
oh yeah, and u noe what,
nowadaes im noticing changes around me...

Some r bad, some r good...
I wont mention abt e bad ones though...

Abt e Good things...
well,
My brother is growing up fast...
i bet dats a good thing...
Immaturity is slowly decreasing....
Haahha...GOOD then...

The other one is changing too...
Not e same kind of change,
but i feel like we're getting closer n closer
n i can feel like he's able to
understand whatever problems i face...
Give me advices n stuff...

Hmmm...
One more change,
in myself...
I realise im getting so fed up with things going on around me
that now i dont give a damn
to whatever shit there is in my life anymore...!!!
...phew....

I want to get out of my stresses
which have been bugging me all this while...
N i want to enjoy life as it is...

And now im focussed on ONE thing...
To study hard n enter NUS n get a medical degree...
Sooner or Later...

And that is ALL...

Yeah yeah im pathetic...hehehe

But i really need a direction to head for in my life...
To get these distractions away from my mind...

Coz Seriously,
If my life was a movie,
it'll be a really sad n thrilling one...
But i hope it'll have a happy ending...

THAT is why im getting so fucked up
with things going on around me...

Especially with things going thru my brain...
Only gives me headache...

Well now im going to get back to one of my principles in life...
GOOD THINGS COME FOR THOSE WHO WAIT!!
Yea dats rite...

Very right...

So hopefully things will get better for me...!!
U go girl!!
Heehe..

Okay...
Im alright now...
N sleepy...

And im done.....(finally)

So nite!!=)

=(

2008-03-07T19:34:00.001+08:00

Greaattt...

Holidaez r such a boorree... =(
I rilli dun lyk staying at home...!!

Waiting n waiting for the call by a school lest
they got any need of relief teachers...
Pick my name in ur database quick!!!

In e meantime im tutoring...
tutoring two primary school boys who r so0o0o0.....
Haix..
I dun know what to call them...

I dun wanna explode...
bt all i can say is dat its not a gd thing...

Anyway....
yeah, holidaes r boooring....
The thing abt me is dat i dun lyk to go out...
Unless ive got lots of money dat is...

I was eager to go out n all dat stuff when the holidaez just started,
bt im kinda lazy to get out of the house....
even when its for fun n leisure kinda stuff...

And what more now im SICK!!!
Aaargh!! I hate it..!!

My kind of sickness is always the same...serious...
Its a four stage process..haahaha...=D
But again, im serious....

Firstly, i'll have sorethroat (this is the worse sickness EVER!!)
Secondly, aft 2-3 days it'll be constant cold n flu...
Then, with flu, high fever starts.....=(
And lastly, asthma which lasts for a few days...

Then aft dat i'll be kinda ok...

Funny huh...=D
But honestly, this ALWAYS happen n not a step will b missed...
which like duh, make it hell for me...

And of coz i'll look gross within that 5-7 days...

Haaiiixx....

Anyway,
dats the boring life i lead...n miserable too...
Bt that's only part of it...

So nowadaez the only fun dat i get comes
from playing The Sims 2 game on my pc...
At least dats entertainment...

Whatever...
Im crapping like hell now...
My head's getting dizzier n dizzier....

So i gotta go...
Oh god Im feeling like im gonna puke anytime!!!!!

***rush to the sink................(to be continued)

Exams r Over!!!

2008-02-27T19:40:00.000+08:00

At last!!!!
Im freeeeee.....!!!
To do wateva i want n enjoy to the max
n go to the movies **breathe in** n go shopping n hangout w my frens n throw my notes away........!!!
Emm,Mayb not the last one...hehe

Anyway,
now no more brain cracking n headaches..=)

Its all over......
But haix...
i'll b missing my frens a lot frm now ...
U guys hv been soo great to me n....
Well, let me thank u guys one by one can....?

Nadiah--
u've been really kind n helpful...
Really really hardworking n smart...
matured in thinking n i can always seek advices from u....
those r the best qualities i found in u...
N u alwys smile n nvr show ur anger
even though sometimes i noe u are kinda stressed up...
hehe..very sweet n very very laughable...
haha...n a livewire among us...=)

Halima--
Ure one heck of a person!!
Very very hyper n funny...
heehe.. Very hardworking(VERY,i tell u)..
really wierd n one of a kind..
Mischevious smtimes...hehe
Even though smtimes we argue on stupid things
due to our different personalities,
we still can maintain our frenship till now...
N thanks for trusting me to keep all ur secrets n worries..
it'll always be safe with me...heehee=)

And thanks alot for both of ur help
when im in trouble with something
that really makes
me guilty and miserable at e same time...
Coz when it comes
to such things im just another fool...
Seriously...

Thx alot girls=)

Diyanah--
Ure really really nice n down to earth..
Even though u hv a wide social circle,
u still can find time to prioritise n dats wad i look up to in u..
To me ure very lucky to hv so many capabilities...
N i really admire how ure very alive
n full of stories to tell n cheerful...
And even though sometimes u hv stresses,dun give up...
I know u hv alot of potential...
Uve been a great great friend=)

Din---
Hmmmm....
Loves to laugh at my so-called slow-ness n stupidity...
n will continue on laughing till dunnoe when...
Haaha..i noe lah i sux at getting jokes...=@
Anw,ure smart n pretty helpful too..
Ure open-minded n i can agree
with u on many things alot of times...
dats why i can get along w u pretty well...
Dats wad appreciate of u...=)

Hmmm...
u all hv been nice in many ways towards me
n though we'll b splitting up nx sem,
i hope our frenship will last for long time to come...
Well at least we can still meet every APEL lesson rite...?
Yeaahhh...=)

N the same goes to all my frens in B7..
U guys rox!!
A caring class indeeeeeed.....

Hope my new class nx sem will b just as great... =D
I'll miss all of u sooo much...

Oh god, i feel like crying now...
I Dunnoe why...
There's just this sudden atmosphere
that makes me feel such a miss...
Ohh no no no..please....beta stop crying now...
Haaaizz...

Nite nite=D

Friendship Glitter Quote Graphics

Exams...exams...exams....=(

2008-02-22T18:39:00.001+08:00

Okay Okay...i update alreadii...
Nah engkau....
Hahaha...

Weyy ms smiley,
Sorry eh recently i neva rilli talk to u...
n I neva go to any family gatherings...

Im rilli busy...
Understand ah....

Im like super crazy now trying
to fit in evrything in my brain...
Haiz....

Eh n u noe wad,
during the holidaez i'll b working...

I applied for relief teacher alreadi u noe..
I noe u want rite....??
Heheheeh...
Blh perasan jadi cikgu for 1 mth...
But nt confermed if i get selected or not...
=)

Bt i dunno if my experience in tutoring
will be useful for teaching a whole class....
I dun think it'll help...
Scary sehh.....

And worse of all i dunno how to scold people...
except for my brothers ah..haha
Whenever i scold i'll laugh...
then of coz ppl wont listen to me...
Hmmmm...=(

Aniwae...
Its exams NOW....HAIZ...

Im not supposed to be posting a
blog as a matter of fact...
I cant wait for this mad thing to be over!!

Then i can enjoy to the max...
Hehehe...

Btw thank god presentations r over!!
Phew..
I did pretty ok in sociology presentation...
Itwas pretty sad then coz it was the last day..
i'll be seeing my socio frens...

It's been superrrr nice working w them...

Nx sem it'll be a whole new chapter for me...
I'll miss u all sooo much...haix...

Hmm...oklah,just dropping by to relief my stress...
Ive got nothing to say...

Ure rite ms smiley,
my blog mcm nak mampus pun....
HahHaha...
Just so u know, ur blog pun mcm gitu aper....

OoopS!!

Heheehe...Jkjk ajer lah...

Nite=)

=(

2008-02-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

Oh god....
I felt sooo terrible....
I cant imagine how someone who
once used to be my closest fren....
Changed totally....

Like TOTALLY....

I happened to meet her by chance on my way home...
I wasnt expecting her to be sooo.......Wild...
She used to be a straight A student back then..

Pretty nerdy too...hehe
But now..??!!

Gosh i felt bad for her...
I mean,i was like OMG when i saw her in emo style...
frm top to toe...
And whats with the red n white stripes n stuff?
And black lipstick...?
Haizzz....

Hair is totally gold...yepp...GOLD....
abit like blonde, but its rilli an eyesore...
Haix...

She'd be better off if she hadnt changed for this..
i miss the old her..
I wonder how she changed within such a short time...

What kind of company has she been mixing with....?
Hmm..
Or..maybe i mistook her for the wrong person??

Err,nah...
Its rili her i guess....

Bt its kinda strange that she cared to smile at me...
And i smiled back...
but we neva talk..

Probably her attitude is not that bad,
but her original image is gone....

Hmm...well no use to hope she'll change back...
Just hoping her attitude wont change to worse is already enough....
Haix...

=(

Damn exhausted....

2008-01-27T11:31:00.000+08:00

This morning....
Went around tampines area blk 852 to 856 to collect old newspapers n stuffs...
it was reeaalllyyy tiring!!!
And b4 dat i got lost n was like a mad woman searchin for the right block....

And worst of all, felt really uncomfortable in my extra large green shirt which make me look ugly.....yuck...
and by the end of the day i felt damn sticky n dusty from carrying all those old newspapers...

But in the name of community service..........=)

Hahaha... =)

----From left: Din,Nadiah,Diyanah,Me....and sitting down is halima--

Anywaez i had fun though with my frens...
yeah...
we're gonna be separated soon....
very very soon...
most r going PST, im in BMT course....

haix....
but no worries...its not like im never going to find any new ones....
But im going to miss them of coz....

And im sooooooo eager to know who'll be in the same class with me nx yr....

Heeheheehe....
Hope they'll be as good as these peeps....
=)
Alritey...tkcre...esp u who's reading this...=)

My old self is back again...

2008-01-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

Its been pretty long since i last blogged....
And i remember that time i was sooo down to the max...

Haix...

Bt school continues like normal for me
and im more focused on my studies than anything else now....

And u noe wad, im really happy dat i did
pretty well for my impromptu speech test.......=)
I gave my best shot when giving my speech
on the ''arranged marriages'' issue.....
I was trembling but it turned out ok.....heehe..

And the best thing that happened
is that i got into Biomedical Technology!!
Yeah!!!!

Phew....i really wanted to go BMT...
and now i got it...
But it scares me sometimes as a lot of students
admitted there are very smart and really clever ppl...
those >3.5 pointers....

Haiz...but who says i cant be better...?? i know i can...

Heezzz=p

And 1 more thing....
Now i usually skip lectures...hehehe...
coz i dun find it much useful...
I prefer mugging at home...and doing individual study...
it works better for me that way....

Hmmmm....
Its really getting stressful sometimes
bt im trying my best to cope with it..

So... im not going to blog till like.....erm....
next month or something??

Heehee...
Yeah, i guess that's all left of whatever i wanted to say...
Pretty dull n boring nowadays so there's not much going on...
Just normal routine stuffs....

Hmmmm.....

So tkcre everyone....
Especially u who's reading this......
Nitex=)

School's starting already....hehehe=D

2007-12-30T12:36:00.001+08:00

Today....
Met my lovely cousins one more time
before a whole new year starts....

After which it'll be hectic..especially for me....
So i guess thére wont be enough time to meet again...
long before any events r scheduled again......

Actually today was the 100th day
after the day my grandfather passed away....

So we all went to my grandmother's hse
to say prayers together to commemorate that day....
In memory of my late grandfather....
So it was a solemn ceremony after all....

But it lasts only for a while,
after which we just had a family gathering of some sort...

Well, i guess it'll be the last one
before the long haul of school semester,
when everybody will be busy with
their own work and studies...

Especially me.....
When school is just beginning for others,
my main examination is just around the corner...

Poly life sux at times...
coz our holidaez arent the same with the others.....
and when others r having their holiday,
we're having our exams...haizzzz.....-------------------My lovely cuzzins...Ikah n Fifi------
Anyway.....
I had an just average day today....
bt for ms smiley it was her most
lucky day i guess...Heehehe....

----------Ikah n Me...sorry abt the camera flash------------

Contrary to the previous one
when she had a really really bad end for the day....

Today's a much better one 4 sure...

U noe why???

Coz her crush treated her sooo good.....
Lucky her.....
Hahahaa....=)

Oh yeah....
By the way for subject selection, im done with it...
This round im less worried abt my choicess...

For main subject selection, i chose BMT as 1st choice...duh....XD

AND my choices for Cross Disciplinary Subjects r:
1) French Language
2) Japanese Language
3) Introduction to Pscyhology
4) Colour and Composition
5) Freehand Drawing

I hope i can get French....
any of the 1st three choices will also do...
number 4 and 5 are not what i like dat much...
hopefully i dont get those subjects....

Hmmmm....
This coming term is gonna be pretty boring and dull...
exams n presentations....
oh god i hate that....

Im gonna dread presentations the most...my weakest capability of all....
Whatever it is, i guess this coming term's going to pass like a breeze...
it'll be a very short term 4 sure.....

See ya all!!!!
Take care....u who's reading this....=)

Tomorrow is the day....

2007-12-27T21:03:00.000+08:00

Oh mi god..
Today's such a P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C day...

I was like a mad person going back
n forth from home to e busstop...
Why??
Because of conflicting information that
my friends gave me....
''To go or not to go to watertech fieldtrip...dat is the question...''

Left me confused..
bt eventually ended up NOT going..
haha...

Coz i was already late...reallly late......
so why bother going rite....
Bt i must admit i was also pretty stupid at that moment..
morning dumbness....
i guess....
I was soooo ridiculously indecisive...n i ended up feeling like a big fool for myself...

Anywaez..
Tomorrows the big day!!!
Guess why...??
Not my wedding...not my bdae.....

Its subject selection day!!
Hahaha!!

Wakakaka...=p
Ok Ok...stop being a study FREAK alrite...
Nah, nothing special abt dat anw...

Bt it just excites me a little...
When actually its just abt choosing subjects...

I REALLY REALLY want to enter BMT...
Biomedical Technology dat is...
Coz i dont like the other choice at all-- -Pharmaceutical Tech....Yuck....=@
Oops..!
Sorry if i offended any pro-pharmaceutical tech here...=D

Hmmmm... i really hope im able to get it for nx yr...=)

And him....??
I noe its been so long since i talked abt him...
Hm....i guess i do want him to end up
in e same course as me nx yr...
bt i dont really mind much if he doesnt...
My studies r more important anyway.....

Hmmmm....
nah, i dont want to talk abt it.....

Okay...
alritey, tkcre all..esp u who's reading this...
=)

Happy happy Day...

2007-12-24T20:25:00.000+08:00

Heeyyaa...
U noe wad...
School is nearing...
Homeworks wil b piling...
And the stress will start..

Oh..and not forgetting my 'Save the Last Dance' movie review assignment!!! Haizzzz...

Today's e last dae im gonna hangout with ms smiley
b4 school reopens....

So......
Forget abt shopping n eyeing on stuffs n wasting money...
N going to hectic n busy places loaded with people..

We went to da library n did some camwhoring!!!
N talk n talk n talk....but NO reading AT ALL...hahahahaha...
Oh.... and NOT forgetting e reservoir... went there to relax our minds...heeezzz

Typical of us....
Hmmm...
And then We Talked abt life...n stuffs...
Dats why i love to hangout with her.

She's the only confide to whom i let out all my
anger, sorrows, happiness and dreams..
I got no body else...seriously...
I mean...seriously....

Sometimes we just need to chill n put aside the stresses of life..
n of coz there's a need to express it..
To someone who understands..
Of course nobody understands u beta than urself,
bt its always good to hv a listening ear to
express the feelings u hv inside...

I guess im gg to far off...so....
Anyway........
Hahaha..=)

Moving on.....
Err, Ok....why not i let da pics do e talking...

--------------Smile=)Me on the right, ms smiley on e left---

-----------Dump truck??!! What kinda book is dat???----
---hehe...senyum kat camera lah..bukan kat buku..=)------View of Temasek Poly frm e reservoir where we sat... I miss my skul--

Hmmmm.....
even though we didnt do anything much,my legs r starting to cramp sia..
I told ya im really sickly wheneva im out...

Aaargh...!!

Anyway...today was fun n just ok...
Saw lotsa cuuuteee kids @ e lib...
N enjoyed the calm n serenity of the reservoir...

I love this kinda life...
really releases my tension...

Not only dat, it depicts who i am...

Well whateva it is...
Enough of talking crap ok....
Im really tired n i want to sleep...

Tkcre all n sweet dreams...

Hahaha=)
Nite2......

2007-12-23T22:28:00.001+08:00

bOREDOM iS a sloW bt Deadly kILLer...

2007-12-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

BorINg day...
Stayed at home all day...it sux...so bad...
SCHOOL!! WHEN ARE U GOING TO OPEN???!!!

hAIX..around 1 week more to go...
i want to get back my papers!!!

I ALWAYS dread holidaez...

Anyway, moving on....yEsterday was not a gd day
for me n ms smiley...it was hari raya haji,
bt that day was bad for both of us...

In the beginning it seems alright BUT then.....

excitement subsides..
I dont really know how to describe it.the atmosphere was just not pleasant.
Bt i know ms smiley was even more dissapointed coz
she didnt really interact with her crush much.

I tried to get them closer by talking to him bt she
seemed too shy to even turn to look at him like normal.
i know how it feels. bt then....she shld in fact try to talk to him n take that chance.

Hmm...her low self esteem is getting her nowhere..
She had a really PERFECT chance yesterday
bt she blew it off with a bad ending for the day.

Hmmmm...
I rarely get such a lucky chance to get close to someone im attracted to.
I admit dat i always have to try to arrange a
chance encounter...im rilli good at planning it..heehe..

Coz u cant just rely on fate to make that encounter happen aite??

Anyway hope for a gd ending the next time she meet him..

Haahaa...nite nite =)

--Shopping With MiSS sMiLEy--

2007-12-18T23:19:00.000+08:00

Holla...=)
Gosh it's been sooooo long ever since i wrote an entry....
Busy woman....dat's why...heehe

Aniwaez, i had sooo much fun today hangin out with my deareeest cousin....ms smiley...

Received loads of birthday presents from her family...and every 1 of it is fantastic..oh, and i lurve the perfume and necklace the most...! THANK YOU once again!!!

Oh..and FYI, my birthday is on 17 DECEMBER.....heeehheee..dah lepas dah.... Bt dont forget!!!still got next year!! haaha..kidding=)Lol..

Then we went bugis and shop till we drop...well, at least until i felt so sick and nauseous...
im alwaez like dat whenever im out..sickly girl...i hate it...=(

From the right, Ikah, Me and Fifi aka mis smiley---

hmm...and not forgetting our incessant chattering on whatever topic that comes to mind...nonsense or not, we dun care....we just talk abt it...heehee...

bt of coz, mostly we talk abt ms smiley n her never ending love stories..

she's having a HUGE crush...

BUT....

BIG, HUGE PROBLEM......

She fell in love with her own cousin...hmmm....well, basically my cousin too ah....

Im not sure what to say abt that..bt its not wrong right??
It's not common....bt not impossible to happen....

So ms smiley,take it slow k...if its fated, it'll happen...
And remember....it'll come when u least expected it....

Dont think n worry abt dat guy so much alrite....
U told me u think abt him 24/7..DONT make ur life so stressed up please....
It happened to me lots of times before...and it doesnt make anything better at all...it makes things worse.....

So...i'll just go with the flow...act as if i dont care...and dont expect anything...but of course, deep in my heart lies that wish which i hope will be fulfilled...

And the same goes to u ms smiley...take it easy...=)
And im really sleepy now....and damn tired....so adious...=)

Water Technology???

2007-10-27T00:19:00.000+08:00

I hate skul...

Omg!! How can i get water technology...??!!
I didnt even put it as one of my choice lah for my cds...=(
Or did i???

Nah, even if i did it would be the sixth choice i think...
I dun like it coz there's chemistry...

And Its supposed to be cross disciplinary...i had enough of chemistry last sem....aargh..!!
And water tech is sooo not of my interest!
I want somethin NOT related to applied science....
Haiz....

Too bad i cant change it...got to stick with it one whole sem....=@

Hope it'll be easy...bt i guarantee it'll be borring..................

Busy EvErY Day AnD NitE....Haizz

2007-10-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

Its been pretty long since i wrote an entry...
Well i've been pretty busy lately after school reopened...
Not much time to switch on the pc...
Moreover this semester im planning to focus more on studies than anything else....
Hehe..=)

Miss smiley...we're gonna meet real soon...on sunday...
Surely u want to know what happened in school since it started...ehemm..u know what im talking abt miss smiley....

=P

Anyway nowadaez im feeling kinda moody ...dont know why....
What i know is that it is something related to school...

not abt the dreadfulness of studying or what...it's something else...

Its making me depressed sometimes..

Hey, bt i still got my lil bro to keep me cheerful every single day...seriously he's the BEST EVER!!!!
He's like a gift from heaven im tellin u....
Haaha...and i snap a pic w him just now.He rilli makes my dae...=)
Haahaa..sorry abt the camera flash though...
-----------------------Me and Hidhir(my lovvve)-------------

And abt my prob...
Hmmm....
Nah, nevermind....

I'll figure it out myself...

2007-10-23T01:14:00.001+08:00

1st Day Of Semester 2 !!!

2007-10-22T19:10:00.000+08:00

Today's the 1st day of semester two..
hmm... nothin much actuali...only lectures started and i was introduced to my new sociology subject..it was quite fun actuali..even though many said it wasnt...
Its basically abt studying human behaviours scientifically...hhmmmm.....

Anyway today i got to meet my frenz again aft so long..

but not much of him...
hmm..why??

I dont know....

Bt i felt that im kinda getting over him alreadi...not completely though...

But whatever it is i'll not rush things...im going to let fate determines it all...=)

And u now wad, this semester im going to study extra hard and give my fullest...i hope i can do well..last semester was not very satisfactory for me coz i cannot concentrate much on studies due to some personal stuffs....

Bt my wish for this semester is to get a good GPA score...
I want to realise my dream of entering medicine in university...

I dont think im good enough for that..bt i'll try...

I'll b a good girl this semester for sure...

And i'm not going to forget him...i know i cant...so i wont try to...
Anyway it's nice to admire someone right...?
So....i'll just keep him in my heart always and say a prayer every night so that fate will be on my side....

But in the meantime im not going to let this affect my life and take control over me...
Life still goes on....=)

Last day of holidays....

2007-10-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

Today's the last day i can enjoy raya to the max b4 school reopens..which is tmr...
Im kinda dreading it..bt then again, school's fun!(..sometimes...)

Tmr lecture at 9am...math lecture...haiz..now dats boooring!!
Anyway...
Today me n my cuzzins went raya together n it was great even though we only went to two houses..haaha...coz we spent sooo much time in one house dats why...
And...
Today i spilled out my greatest secret to one of my cousins...bt i think she's trustworthy enough to keep it confidential...
Haaha...she better do..or else a major catastrophe will occur! and i'll be doomed...

Nah..dat will never happen...

It might, bt it wont.....

Alrite..guess tmr will be a big day..better get some sleep or i'll b dreading going to school tmr...
Nite Nite..

Hmm.....

2007-10-19T14:24:00.000+08:00

Yea yea ms smiley...im blogging in alreadi..haha=)

Anyway...
Today something sets me thinking...
How good it is if i were to have some sort of special powers...or, lets say special inventions...
Something people dun know abt and only i myself know abt it....

Well it might be lame and ridiculous bt i do fantasize abt this sort of stuff and wish to have it in my hands...(who doesnt ?!).
Erm, if i were to be given the choice, i would definitely want to have a time machine...haha=)

Apart from teleporting or mind-reading or x-ray vision or whateva it is....time machine beats it all....for sure..

Just imagine...what u can do with that thing....

it works wonders...seriously....

U can turn back time and undo whatever faults u had done....
U can change fate and determine ur own future in life....
U can predict whatever happens in the future by fast-forwarding time...
Gosh, if u really think abt it in a wider perspective, u'll really know what on earth im talkin abt...

Bt then again, its just a mere dream and fantasy...if only this machine exists...

Bt something tells me it does...somewhere in dis world...have yet to be discovered....

Oops..! Guess im starting to drift away to dreamland again...

Haaha..
Wake up!Wake up!!

=)
Well, expect to hear crappy things like this when ure reading my blog...
I dont really tell this kinda things to people..u bet dis is the first time i did...
Other den dat i always keep my mystical fantasies to myself...

Coz there's a very gd reason why.....

It irritates people....

Heez=)

Adious..

Counting Down the days....

2007-10-18T11:28:00.000+08:00

*****Nothing special happen today...nah, bt who cares....the only thing i care abt is that school is going to open real soon..! honestly i cant wait...
Actually im more looking forward to starting learning the subjects...this semester the subjects will be more to biology( rocks my world!!)..modules like human physiology and immunology and cell biology, bla bla bla....heehe...
ive got enough of chemistry last semester..i hate it..coz i pretty sux at chemistry...anyway....

Abt him...(u know who)...well i guess im just going to ignore abt the situation...who cares what happens rite??
Bt as much as i want to act as if he's invinsible to me, i cant escape from what im feeling..so i'll just let things fall into place.....

Im starting to feel that my close confides r really important...or shld i say essential....to me.
Especially 'ms smiley'...i know i can depend on her to support me in whatever probs i face...

Cousins 4eva 4 sure Lil' Miss Smiley....=)****

My FirsT Ever Unprivate Entry..=)

2007-10-16T21:29:00.000+08:00

Its my first entry ever..haaha..its kinda awkward coz im used to writing private old-fashioned diary entries n stuffs like dat..haaha...I nvr thought of writing a blog, coz i love privacy..

bt maybe i could just use this medium of writing my expressions just for the fun of it...or maybe not...hmm..Hello World! and welcome to my life....

Here u'll not just be able to know more abt any ordinary girl, bt a girl who have strong roller coaster emotions which make her world seems like its in constant ups and downs all the time....

Im growin up..im 17...and im changing...so u can c my hormones r raging( well, not laterally..haaha) and im confused with things happening all around me..

Things like family probs, low self-esteem prob, friends prob...ahh, the usual stuff...Bt seriously these things r getting me crazy n im going haywire...ive got to seek some help i guess, especially on the low self-esteem issue...

Guess it might be stupid to be worrying abt things like dat bt it does get on my nerves all the time...

im not really some sort of an ogre who hv ugly features everywhere, bt there's just some things which i always worry abt...im willing to work on it bt im only a student and there's not much things i can do to improve my physique and appearance...

bt one thing for sure is dat if i eventually have the chance, $$ i mean, im really going to show the world im a no loser....hahaha...=)

I ve got one close confide of mine who hv the same issues...always worrying abt her appearance and worth...she's just like me... im getting out of the worry gradually, bt she's still stuck...

i know why she always worry abt her worth...
its bcoz she always compare herself with people whom she thinks r even more beautiful than her....

Gosh, i gotta tell her that that's the reason her self esteem is down the drain man...everyone is spacial...and so is she...and i believe so am i....
we've got to make a change....a change in our thinking and mindset at least....be positive...dats what they always say....And seriously this girl is sweet n nice...

she shldnt worry abt herself at all....Well i guess i got to talk to her abt this stuff....=)

Coz life is not worth it when u keep dreading it by worrying and regretting and wishing for better things....all the time....

Aint dat rite..??

Heezz=)

~~WELCOME TO MY LIFE~~